i think that we need to outlaw hardcore atheism. but also hardcore religion shouldnt be a thing. we need worldwide agnosticism or "i mean who gives a shit im doing my own thing idc if others think theres one or many gods. i occasionally pray to ancestor spirits and saw a ghost once but im mostly about making good quality clocks and learning about the history of board games". we need religious things to be chill. being really into religion should be seen as if you were really into collecting commemorative spoons and also bit people who didnt like the rolling stones.
reflections.
in the cain's ballroom’s men’s bathroom i talked to a guy who said he was worried his penis was small, five inches. that is slightly above average. i told him this and to read deleuze to get better at sex. i dont know if the deleuze will help but it would be kinda funny. he asked me if i would have sex with a man. i didnt say “no only with beautiful transexual women” because i didnt want to appear as a chaser. i had a wonderful vegan sandwich. i think woke has won. i think, love will win. i went to a bizarre eighties throwback prom. they had “prom monarchs” at a mostly gen x gathering in tulsa. in the 2000s that would never happen. i think that a world of love is still possible.
the point about the penis is that i taught a guy something. i encountered a random man and i went “no that entire mythology is fake, that's statistically average basically”. he probably kinda thought i was gay because i knew penis statistics. but he didnt go “are you some kind of faggot?, get the fuck out of this conversation”. he just did a kinda dumb white guy thing of jokingly asking “would you bumfuck?”. the stranger who says randomly tells you something will stick with you forever.
i once gave weed to a guy for free who i encountered at night. we talked about autism and his ex wife who wanted to get back with him. he wasnt having that, he wanted to be with his girlfriend. he said that i was special after i told him i was autistic. he called the wind autistic. the wind is special because it's autistic and it carries you strange androgynous woman man creature who gave me weed and talked to me.
the world is too beautiful in a stupid way and too stupid in a beautiful way to end.
