5/25/2024. i need to read a chapter of a book about the war on palestine and against virtue. this is because my patron asked me to. but also because i know learning is itself a virtue. i need a girl who triggers my gag reflex. temporarily at least and one of those situations where we both know this is a bad idea.

artwork is by bill traylor.

reminder to ask audrey.

reminder to audrey to give me a reminder on my room.

reminder to draw and paint fursonas.

reminder reminder reminder to bake lemon bars.

reminder to print stickers.

i want to piss myself. too lazy to get out of bed.

again. i wish i was an age regressor because it would be funny. 

reminder to play Tetra's game.

ok, honestly. i say this only because im sleepy but i wouldnt be entirely opposed to.

man. even that i could only spill to audrey if on call and i was eepy and a drunk puppy. 

grind against it. reminder to grind against the worst of the earth.

i dont like some of the girls i hangout with.

today was a blank.

vcd with audrey and catherine.

call just ended.

tetra from new york is talking. 

id bite her.

id bite most of my friends.

harmony sang me a song about crushing on friends.

5/24/2024: statements in systems intent.

statements.

“he issued an edict that a Samaritan should not hold an administrative post, and he confiscated the property of their wealthy men. And there was fear and peace.”.

and thus.

the thrust of the invading force is thrashing through the synagogue doors,

neurotic and angels of blood letting,

frail follow,

pray nightly in blank english:

until hebrew starts making sense.

snakes sneak in as sudden sadie reminders.

i wish we could exchange flac files and not flak telepathy tussells.

tray tables up, flip through skymall magazine.

alright. necrotic singing. got it.

i need secrets. so i can give them only to audrey.

tongue too loose. dog excited about talking finally.

someone stick their tongue in my mouth,

long and have it touch my soul,

make me vomit.

pull me across the atlantic.