6/23/2024: the last great american novel about economic anxiety.

radio drama.

today i hungout with a woman. she was soft. we listened to sigur rós 's second album. i enjoy sex most with weird women i love but oh this was delightful too in its own way. my brain is becoming normal but the thought of the job application slog makes me want to die still. what if im able to only make a single song and never an entire album. i want to make an album. i want two girls to have sex to my music. i want my art to engrain it in peoples minds. 

6/20/2024: yayyy.

museum.

sofia.

music.

june.

meeting.

las vegas.

6/16/2024: bleak fortune.

 "hot wind came from the marshes and death-chill from the mountains".

What did i do then?, this night. this forsaken night. i come crashing down into sadness again. words not to my friend. ney shall i inflict this onto her or anyone. neurotics and schizophrenics. draw this blood out of me. let me kiss you already. god selight, dog delight, semetry, century of tetra sorrows. the sun rises up. it falls again. i love you. i love you audrey. i repated this until it became true. i am tetra soho, 886 Rutgers Ave, Chula Vista. "I’ve been living in the Philippines for about ten months now. I have met a five year old girl who was raped by her father - he is still free, and his daughter is being raised by nuns who have to beg to keep the kids in their care fed and education."  And so they never understand, and thus the white woman repeats. The wonder of the west, "the mongels never change", i never change. friend brings joy of camera film to me. i clean. i clean. until it stops my bleeding. one day i will be able to love everything, my heart full of love reaches out. i will not hatefvck my s1ster symbolic. the west stays rotten and full of evil. BUILD YOUR PC WITH ORRHAN BLOOD. BUILD IT GOOD FUCKER. BUILD IT BUILD IT. BUILD IT WHILE WOMEN GET R@PED AS WORK. the pink dots play the night out.

i am loved.

i need to remember that.

6/15/2024: the seventeenth search result for "hashirat".

flowers for you, high tension flows, the patriot, i demand immortality now and forever for my bestest friends.

we out here at skyline, we out here and chilling, shoutout to that hashirat artist.

6/14/2024: too many.

ive known too many people.

the events of a novel happened. 

and im here after the final page.

it doesnt feel like. i have anything to do.

i hope i find something to do.

some girl to be.

6/13/2024, worries.