merry wives of windsor review.

it was weird fake seventies themed and they fucked up elvis. it was fake fake elvis.

anyway, your wife cheating is fine, who cares, crossdressing isnt a punchline. marriage should be banned unless it's for funny reasons.

i biked fast. 

driiink.

im a doggy and i vc with women and im kinda surprised when i vc a lot with someone and remain just friends and like. yeah. good job me. i no longer fall in love with whatever girl is near me. i instead seemingly only become deeply insane and dedicated to women who like baseball and arent good at communicating and are deeply insane. i did mutual aid thing today and got to feel smug about art.

7/5/2024.

was sad today. didnt do much. read some, did art, worked on music but didnt turnout good. and then [data redacted]. it's interesting to say "yeah sure fuck it". i understand everything. i understand the mannerz of drunken love and secrets and honkai star rail yaoi and rwby academic fanfic.

7/4/2024: let no more perish.

Onyx Pillars!, 

stretch to heavens, pierce G-d's soft belly!.

Oxen trudge through her guts,

Fate's ravens pick through the mess.

Find the Souls of soft dolls.

Pennies on eyes, pennies on eyes,

Rough fiber, purple fabric.

Climb that tree. Claim what is yours.

You leave us, you remind us that this world is ours.

We bring back the dead with sapphire love.

a poem for puppydoll, maybe its memory be a blessing.

i cried today. i made art today. i rambled to a man about art today. i was reminded that many men are pedophiles today. i learned someone i met died last night today. i told my friends i love them today. i went insane because of my wife today. 

theres an entire philosophy of art inside me. i let it out sometimes. art doesnt save anyone. if it did id try harder to be better at it.

7/2/2024: yay.

im a thirt33n year old girl and i make music on the computer and sometimes i listen to music where they say swear words but dont tell my mom,,, ok?, she thinks im not old enough for that stuff :/. my favorite artists are the grateful dead, 4lung, car seat headrest, and warren zevon, im not like other girls my age :3. tho i do like charili xcx and mcr sometimes... i made an album cover for my song tonight, hope yall like it!. goodnight internet, <3.

7/1/2024, *nuzzles you*.

one time i was supportive of femboys, and a girl said it was a slur, she turned out being right. i didnt talk to that girl for. like. two years. and then messaged her randomly. we talk now and then. shes neat. disconnected from any other friend group. i didnt do much day. didnt take one of my adhd meds. but thats ok. im vcing with kirby. it's nice to do. kirby is pretty. id rest my head upon her. shes silly. i like when girls are silly and pretty. i hope my sister moves out soon.

6/29/2024: generally it's a bad idea to start making art as a way to talk about your ex.

im talking to my ex, in a way that. isnt terrible. it's a bad idea to be a traumatized girl and make all your art about yourself and your trauma. to make art as a response to a former lover. for many reasons. i want to shutup about this bullshit. i have a piece about las vegas to finish. i need to go to distros. so i can get money to go kiss my girlfriend. well. theres many steps in-between. going to distros means an obligation, a schedule, a work shift, a separate community.

in february or march 2023 i decided i should be raped. i thought someone hated me. and i was avoiding a community for awhile, this would eventually turn into exile. i found a girl who i didnt think would respect my consent. she did respect it. nonetheless, here i was, with someone listening to me. me and her did knifeplay. later we would watch di gi charat together. i remember eating gyros with her. and drinking whiskey. the person didnt hate me. the exile is eternal, even if i did return i would be in exile. one becomes alive (harmed, but alive) via exile.