a slowness and a drum.

wake up, get dressed, jerk off, lately ive been wandering around observing raceplay servers, a very pathetic sort of sight. meet chloë after half an avocado, pickup whitney, drive to denver, coffee, meet other transgenders, pickup drum scanner from gen x man. go back to boulder, unload, cosmos pizza, film transgenders, wonderful. then aviv swings by, talk and chat and car and fake cigarettes and wonderful. wonderful ween. beautiful. back home, sushi, dessert, sleep, vc with cerise puppy doggy.

23.

talked to people ig. it was a day that happened.

lament.

i learned she died. yesterday i watched a video about john spear and worked.

thank you ake. i love you. i will visit your grave.

i threw up recently.

day before yesterday or so i threw up. friday. i drank too much. ive been thinking about what i should do with my life. it is self centered to say but i do wish to set to work on an epic. i am a coward in many ways. bleh. christmas was alright. keep it all very simple.

beat.

i went on a date with the only non-autistic tgirl in colorado, i took her to a bookstore run by the most autistic man who doesnt realize hes autistic, i also got a new lens, 70-200mm, i took pictures of the girl. she is extremely beautiful. i wanna bite her. im on call with one of my sisters.

today.

oh today i am a fool, i sat bored and didnt write of my adventures, i make a try at an exit from twitter. oh those lands, new york city calls back to me. shush about seattle soup. i think i might be falling for gwendolyn, but it is the time of long nights and it's so much easier to fall then. read about proto-indo-european and culture and investigate some poetry too. oh cant forget that hastily put together a song, only in the loose words, for a friendly weekly competition. sat and enjoyed. it was a calm day, which ended with calling gwen and reading poetry to her. 

nyc.

i need to write about my trip to nyc.

it was nice.

i met lovely people.

lex walton feels like a cosmic sister (not in a trans incestuous way but someone who understands the situation).

im befriending coworkers and people who work at the camera store.