6/2/2024: breakcore ego.

 i think nick land's appeal is in that he is a poet. he, like many poets, is a fascist. he is stuck at stage one of the ego formation. stage one is thus: i want it all and i want it now and i want to fuck every t@nny i can and baby baby let me hit please, oh let me lose myself in kink and death and drugs and vegas. Las Vegas is the image of a future we once imagined, it is bright and empty and vapid and running on corpses and stolen land being gamed by the mob. stage two is withdrawn from the world, it thinks in history, it takes the world as its object of study. stage three takes two ships and slams them into an angel and boom!, whimsy!. think about it like this. it's breakcore and furries. mix it, go fast, think on your feet, you combine everything together, steal and alter and never ever take yourself seriously save for when it's needed. it's needed when it's a question of friends and battle and analysis. analysis is silly. do it tipsy. you are not naïve nel are you too serious. the serious woman is the one who wants to grow up, who runs from her youth and tries to push aside the fun things of stage one. stage two presents problems, it asks to be a holy formalized couple. stage three avoids that, it lets things flow together, it gives things too many names and none are the proper name. uralic hunters go onto the steppes and meet the old gods and learn the names of the stars and the daughters. stage three doesnt ask "lets be partners", stage three of the ego knows names and languages and rituals are holdovers from the steppes and cattle sacrifice and that we, i/you/us use these and we abandon them when they serve no purpose for us. stage three is happy in forming an ego, a self, and then destorying it. it breathes like clay salt flats. your heart is the biggest musle, so is your brain, and your arms. you only become happy with whimsy. you move past tying yourself to your partner and then trying to make reason your partner, you enter into loving your partner and not tying yourself to them. you rely on yourself (and thus the world because the world and the self blend together) and in this you let yourself flow free. breakcore comes from the future. and dont you know girls got to dance?.