73 Yards.

i feel like Ruby Sunday in the episode 73 Yards. i am a woman of some evil, i am a woman of much evil. no, it's just. i am a complex and flawed woman. i am something that doesnt exist yet. i am missing Carli today. i am wanting to give her a big hug. i think i am beginning to Love her maybe. i hope i am. i am afraid i r*ped Carli and she isnt saying anything because she is afraid i would kick her out. in high school people didnt like me because i hugged them without asking. today i havent done much. i love you. i love you. i love you. today i read about Empire of the Petal Throne and read more about it. its creator was a white guy that converted to Islam and did Holocaust denialism, was a professor of languages. weird guy. i hope Carli comes back soon but i dont want to be possessive.

meant to post this at five something.