life is hell without adhd meds.

accompanied Temperance to the gateway. did a divining ritual, the stones answered "no" to my question, which was to ask a request or a question. Temperance is going to go visit Thorn tomorrow. we made noodles. my leg hurts too much. my heart hurts too much. poetry factory happened tonight. poetry reading happened tonight. missed both. saw the first bit of poetry factory. today i was filled with nothing. my house and home and heart are empty. i am talking to a russian radfem in the hopes i can come to an understanding. i miss Margo. we watched Interstella 5555. me and Temperance. im afraid i raped it still. on vc with Mithos. i need to record the deeds of other days. i need to record the deeds of other women.

during the the weekend i went to art museum with Robyn, an older lesbian talked to me there. told me to apply to a temporary position. 

i dont remember today but will remember that walk. called Mithos. only for a little while. did the rites. according to the methods of Canto One. i am weary and restless. i am wanting to hold a girl. i am needing to make something of my life.