twenty three minutes or there about was the time i spent during the second day of visiting my partner on twitter. and most of that was reading her outloud posts of a turkish man. im trying to quit the stupid website. loving multiple people is like poetry, most people are very bad at it but blame it on the medium instead of the fact they havent worked through all the needed bs. i think those who are very strictly against polyamory lack object permeance like they are a baby, "oh no my lover is in the bed of another so this relationship isnt true and bound". shut up. what are you?, stupid?, do you feel envy when your partner is thinking about dinner and go "oh man i matter less than the bisque because she isnt actively thinking about me"?. is that the deal we have going here?.
if you cant get over base impulses i dont think you were meant for the mahogamous lifestyle either. the only time you own your partner is when you playing pretend in the bedroom or by the side of the interstate. living an actual life means you gotta realize permanence isnt really guaranteed and thats alright. ive wrapped myself up completely in others and buddy when that ends things get messy but i want to do it again anyway. i transferred sisterly relationship onto a long time friend quite some time ago and now im trying to break out of these cycles. someone asked if me and audrey were related, buddy thats my girlfriend but i do like her for many reasons but one is that she reminds me of a third sister i never had but we dont mess around like that because twitter made it cringe and other reasons.
i love those i love, i love them more than anything. but i do realize that theres issues of logistics and the way time tends to operate, the entire question of "primary partners" (even tho i refuse to let anything im involved in really be labelled) is not really a question of valueing one over the other but moreso about how you can live with another. theres those i love but couldnt room with for too long and thats alright, trying to make a theory of romance is kinda dumb and gonna fail ya. but here we are, looking around differnt highways and saying "this way we fuck and love is the most moral" and we have yet to learn that theres no anwser unless you learn to chill out. i want to makeout with my audrey.
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