im drunk,

but not drunk enough. it feels like me gushing about thorn is performative. but, i do miss it and love it. im with Shiv and Whitney and Lucy and other people at a bar. i had two drinks and one earlier. i want things to go back to the way it was before so i could message it "i wanna lay my head in your lap, i love you so much". because i do love it so much. and i say it until i wear it away.

when i was a kid my dad told me to tell people you love that you love them everyday and i have held onto that.