im probably plural kinda but im unemployed so im not gonna, wait actually this is probably the best time to figure it out.

THORN DONT READ THIS ONE PLEASE. I AM WRITING IT AT ONE AM. or you can read it idk haha ha yeah.

i miss thorn :(. i loved existing with it. and i dont know where to go from here. i want to be its mate again i think, im not certain that is true. maybe i want that because it's what ive known. but. regardless idk if that can ever have that closeness with it again. but. also it was only really one headmate fronting during that time. i like knowing things about it. i like taking care of it. i felt like i was doing something good and holy i think when i took care of it. idk. i cant really. imagine. being too seperate. i am scared but i am tired. i wish i was stronger. i wish i was more wild. i feel like there is nothing in this world. i am so tired. i just need to wait and feel this out. i am so uncertain. being with it feels correct. but i am desperate for meaning. i am a fox. i want to passout. 

watched doctor who with ve and it was a truly stupid episode. ve said it was the worst episode she had ever seen.