why is the night?.

up late watching doctor who. went to bed. out of house at ten twenty or something. get to picnic at 1:30. say hi to mandy. find clothes. awkward time with thorn. idk. we talked about things and went and got good times. it felt obligated to have sex last weekend. ive been dead. talked to winter. talked to Lindsey today and last night. idk. talked about complex things with thorn. it's weird!!!. went to church yard. went out and friendhouse to hangout with val. drunk and bought whiskey. touched myself to feral horse art on the bus. im weird. im scared. it was awkward conversation with margo and im scared and why does ketzel dislike me?. aaaaaaaough. i want to be a little girl :(.