getting over it.

sent something today. talked to Robyn. got mad. talked to C. last night a pre hrt trans woman made me cum on all fours. i fell asleep at one thirty or two. too late. the quirk of sending messages only on multiples of fives seems to be continuing. spreading to other things. it's good kinda. have to think about messages and wait. Robyn helped me. the pre hrt girl was surprisingly someone who understood the importance of communication. watching videos. cleaning a tiny bit. went out in the sun. thats when i got mad. 

im gonna stop drinking alcohol, for this month at least. i have too many things. i am worried. let you eat the world. what a mockery this world is. yesterday i wrote a poem. 

never gonna send it to who it is about i think. maybe i will. i think. this one needs more time so it may think and plan and grow. i love you world. 

for the dnd game i think. it's forming in my head. just need to write it out. and read the dms guide. ah well. oh well. pff. 

the sun is both a monster and nice.