it's reflections all the way down.

wokeup at Robyn's, wokeup in the early morning but got back to sleep. did dnd pretty quick after waking up, it was productive. it was a fun session. her character made it to rafttown. later i hungout with S, we played tarot games. we played tower which was fun. left with the ace of cups and sevens of pentacles, which was interesting. me and S had a good conversation about Thorn, which was annoying because i didnt want to have a conversation with S about Thorn. it was illuminating. i wish i at this moment recalled it. well i do. bits and pieces. drafted a message to Thorn and sent it at 5:55, the holiest minute of the day. the conversation was. about it needing space but also. how it felt i was centring myself in the conversation which, idk feels unfair but i do want to talk about how i was hurt. but i do want to be its friend. and also. how a romantic relationship with it wouldnt be possible until that was something i no longer desired which. i know is true. i dont know if i want a romantic relationship or just want a consistent factor in my life again. tonight i hooked up with a hot girl who showed me the short film Mood Boobs which is perhaps one of the most beautiful films ive seen. it was fun. i do think poetry is more fun than sex. and hanging out. i just want to hangout with Thorn i think. the girl, C, is laying upon me and it's very nice. she has beautiful hair. i ate cheesecake off her and she ate cheesecake off me. she called me a cute plate. had salad and salad is yummy. she is warm. i dont want to break her heart or have her get too attached, shes also a fox with borderline. i forgot the joy of hooking up with someone and being shown a new bizarre film or video or talking about poetry. i do need time away from Thorn is the thing. because i dont want a July friendship. i need to reply to J Bailey Hutchison. i have written many poems lately.

talking with Robyn is useful. i do want to see Thorn at the Family Dogs show. because i want to hangout as friends. this girl is very nice and soft and i enjoy hanging out with her. going to bed later than id like.