car seat headrest and david duchovny.

i dont understand this new world i am in. i dont understand it at all. i dont know what is happening. i want to say "i want to rest my head on you". but that would be scary. i want to be trustworthy again. as in i both want to have the things that do make me trustworthy and be seen that way. im thinking about sex. idk. having sex with anyone besides it seems kinda dull tbh. 

today i mostly played skyrim and also risk of rain two. i completed bleak falls burrow. then went to the throat of the world or whatever, helped find a ladys corpse, and cleared out a tomb. this run im not fast travelling which is gonna be interesting. 

tomorrow i want to clean up my room and read, maybe read poetry. 

i am a strange girl. 

this doesnt seem like depression, more like just a rest.

vc'd with mithos and watched old doctor who.